Sep 20, 2021

Behind the Heart of a PK Struggling with Anxiety

We love when PKs share their stories with us. Every pastor’s kid has a story—each unique and lived out differently. However, each story has the ability to bring us together and help us relate to one another. While reading this today, remember that God loves you and he joins you in your story.

Hi, I am a pastor’s kid who struggles with anxiety. I have struggled with anxiety for as long as i can remember. It is a hard battle. There are so many questions that come with anxiety. Do I let anxiety overcome me? Do I continue to just live with it and pretend to be okay? Do I turn to drinking, drugs and a party lifestyle to cope? Do I turn to self-harm and self-destruction? I know in my heart that God is good and can heal all anxiety and pain. So why do I question if he will?

The root of anxiety is small, stressful situations that are suppressed deep within us. Everyone hears the phrase, “let go and let God,” but I don’t want to let go of the comfort of pain. I want to live without anxiety, but the thought of living without anxiety gives me…anxiety. I cry out to God, but not with surrender, but with pain and grief.  I say things like, “God, I am tired, I’m giving up, I feel like this all the time, I can’t live without it”. Then, I am reminded of the verse in Philippians  4:13 that says, “I CAN do ALL things through Christ who strengthens ME.”

As PK’s we feel the pressure to represent God’s goodness and peace. Yet, we shouldn’t do that because we are PKs, we should do it because we love God and believe that he is faithful—He is ALWAYS faithful. As our prayers change, so will the attitude of our hearts. If we are praying prayers that are in self-pity and spite, the Lord cannot move through those things. If we pray with the attitude that the Apostle Paul did in Philippians 4—that we can do ALL things— something will break within us. This break will not be in a bad, heartbreak type of way, but it will break open the walls of anxiety in the heart and let the Father move through you.

As a pastor’s kid. I’ve heard Philippians 4 more times than I’ve heard people in the church say, “AMEN!” However, at the end of the day, I have to live with the truth that I actually CAN do all things through Christ, because he is our rock and our strength. Even when it doesn’t feel like it, he will always be our ultimate comfort. Rest in knowing that God will not fail you, nor will he forsake you.

Even if you still struggle with anxiety and you have fully surrendered your life to him, he will help you through.

I love you. God loves you. You’re worth it.

— From a PK

By <a href="https://pastorskids.org/author/krissieg/" target="_self">Krissie Glass</a>

By Krissie Glass

Krissie was born and raised in Texas. She has two amazing boy/girl twins, Joah and Selah. Krissie is a Licensed Professional Counselor in the state of Texas. She holds a Master’s Degree in Marriage and Family Counseling from Southwestern Baptist Theological Seminary. For over 8 years, Krissie has counseled with people of all ages and from all different backgrounds. Her experience and training have prepared her to work with individuals and families struggling with depression, anxiety, parenting, grief, and everyday life stressors. Krissie has an extensive background working with local churches and ministries. She grew up a pastor’s kid and served in the ministry alongside her husband for eight years.