Jul 16, 2021

Let Us Fix Our Eyes

Oftentimes, I think as Pastor’s kids we lose sight of what attending church is all about. I often catch myself “worshipping” during service, even raising my hands, but what’s really going through my mind is “Do they see me worshipping?”, “Am I worshipping hard enough for them?”, and even, “Is my hair sticking up in the back again?” We often feel like everyone’s watching us. Instead of worshipping, we focus on what the people around us are thinking about us. When, in reality, they probably could care less about all those things we think they care about.

When we worship, God doesn’t care what others think about us. Instead, He wants our full attention on Him. Think about how annoying it would be if you were trying to tell something really important to your best friend and all they kept saying was “Do I look like I’m talking hard enough with you?” or “Do I look ok today?” and at the end when you have to leave you never got to tell them what you wanted in the first place. That would be really frustrating, wouldn’t it? But that’s what God is feeling. Every Sunday you come in and he’s all excited to talk to you and then you spend the whole time worrying about what others think about you.

God doesn’t want us weighed down by self-consciousness and worry. In Hebrews 12:1-2 he says, “Therefore, since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses, let us also lay aside every weight, and sin which clings so closely, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, looking to Jesus, the founder and perfector of our faith, who for the joy that was set before him endured the cross, despising the shame, and is seated at the right hand of the throne of God.” When we’re worried about what the person two rows behind us is thinking, we lose sight of Jesus just like Peter did when he looked at the waves and then started sinking. 1 Thessalonians 2:4 says, “but just as we have been approved by God to be entrusted with the gospel, so we speak, not to please man, but to please God who tests our hearts.” It’s all about pleasing God in the long run, not the congregation in your church.

I still find myself worrying about the questions I said before. I’m definitely still a work in progress, but whenever I do start worrying about what others think about me, I try to stop myself, because this is our time with God. This isn’t time to worry. It’s all about fixing our eyes on Jesus, the author and finisher of our faith.

By <a href="https://pastorskids.org/author/katrina-miller/" target="_self">Katrina Miller</a>

By Katrina Miller

Katrina Miller is a teenage Pastor’s Kid and was excited to share her heart through writing for pastorskids.org. Katrina loves anything having to do with music! She enjoys singing, tiny houses, and blogging through her Instagram (Instagram: melodies_of_grace_blog). She also is skilled in playing ukulele and has 3 of them, including an electric ukulele. Katrina is thankful to be a PK because it gives her the opportunity to relate to other PK's. She hopes to continue meeting pastor’s kids around the world through this ministry because she wants others to know that they are not alone.